ek tu hi tu hi...

Tick-tick...Tick-tick...2400 hrs dated 7th of December: Midnight remembrance of an angel! An opus by some unknown is diverting my psyche deep into her insights. Her pure innocence enriched with her divine voice is overwhelming in my inner waves. Is this a stargaze? I am fortunate enough as the  answer is again affirmative but clubbed with reality this clock. 

Since many years, an intrinsic desire of getting the most natural sweetness was ameliorating my emotional waves in the most tonic cause. The paragon accomplished this 28th of August in the form of my alter ego. Her whiteness was contrasting than sunshine. The beautiful dimensions gratified my intimate boundaries and the ocean of versed impressions ventured my within. A feeling of being on cloud 9 was difficult to deceive. A sense of utmost satisfaction seized my soulfulness. I was lost completely in her irrefutable spark.   

The days elapsed with all greens. The emotional bonding thrived at hearts and the possessiveness of being the guy of this charming beauty incremented my 'I'-satisfying thoughts. Her, being the sun in the darkness of my spirit, being the loving anchor in storms of my life, being the reason of my eternal smile, being the dynamic energy of my sprightliness; mightily and mothering love & care is no less than obsession for me, though defined in highly affirmative fashion. I feel the warmth of her deep breath which constantly reminds me to behave rationally and responsibly. Her hug is deeper than ocean allowing me to flow with all my perceptions. The magical kiss is more affectionate than warm enough to let me forget all my fuss. The intensify of these emotions is hard to narrate. May Almighty bless this angel with showers of felicity!                  

And towards the end with a promise,

With your love close to my heart...

I can ask for nothing more...

Near or far wherever I go...

You will be my companion forever...

Love you gudia...:*

Emptinessss

As long as you love me

I'll stay by your side

I'll be your companion

Your friend and your guide

As long as you love me

As long as you care

I'll do anything for you

I'll go anywhere

i'll bring you the sunshine

I'll comfort your fears

I'll gather up rainbows

To chase all your tears

As long as forever

My love will be true

For as long as you love me

I'll only love you...

"IBS-G"-Moments

Jeevan ke ye haseen pal, yaad aayenge kal

Pal, jo hain bahut khaass,

Kabhi late hain labo pe hansi,

To kabhi kar dete hain is dil ko udass;

Wo mausam ka mizaz badalte hi GT lagana,

Wo gaadiya uthakar highway par nikal jana,

Wo hafte bhar karna Friday ka intezaar,

Wo labs bunk karke dekhna filmain baar-baar;

Wo jaakar canteen main purse ko channa,

Wo ladko ka ladkiyo ko chupkar niharna,

Wo attendance ke waqt proxy lagana,

Aur pakde jane par masoom se chehre banana;

Wo class mai baith kar gaane gaana,

Aur desk bajakar nayi dhune banana,

Wo 50 minute ke lecture mai dekhna ghadi baar-baar,

Aur karna lecture ke khatm hone ka besabri se intezaar;

Wo ek prof. ke na aane par, dinbhar ki GT lagana,

Aur syllabus na complete hone par, exams mai ghabrana,

Wo raat bhar jaag kar exams ke liye padhna,

Aur number na aane par Profs se ulazhna;

Wo choti-choti baaton par dosto se jhagadna,

Fir dekhkar unhe, andekha karne ki koshish karna,

Wo Blitz ki raaton ka lutf uthana,

Wo paise bachakar treats par jana;

Wo karna saal bhar Carnival ka intezaar,

Jo karata tha canteen ke coupons ki jugaad,

Wo Short-List mai naam aane par Profs ko patana,

Aur bhavishya mai regular hone ki jhoothi kasme khana;

Ye sochkar ki ho na jaye inka bhavishya kharaab,

Wo kar dena Profs ka aise logo ko maanf;

Yaad kar in haseen lamho ko, dil dukhi ho jata hai,

Fir na aayenge ye pal, ye sochkar aksar ghabrata hai,

Waqt to ret ki tarah hai, na jaane kab fisal jaata hai,

De jaata hai to sirf Yaadein,

Aur rishto ko mazboot banata hai;

To aao is FAREWELL ki shaam ko haseen banaye,

Bhulakar sabhi gile-shikwe,

Dosti ki nayi kasmein khaye…

Dedicated to Friends...

Inner Peace

1817 hrs dated 23 Dec2010: I am silent today. There is no feeling left inside. The day started with an unexpected message from heaven. The brief chat made me feel as if I had got everything. But deep inside a voice kept on saying, 'dude its virtual; you will never get this angel; wake up, get real'. Destiny!

I rushed towards my car for a long drive was on the way. I was feeling her presence and to my surprise my speed limit confined to 60. But all the way was one more dominant factor which breached my vision. I was repenting on the harsh words I said to somebody the previous evening. That pure soul was crying in the morning and I was the bloody reason. Why I couldn't control myself? I made her cry in the divine time. Should Almighty forgive me for that? No...

The day is about to end and I have had nothing. But there is no feeling of even thirst. My inner peace is lost somewhere. And the irony is that I allowed the same. I am sorry. I could do nothing. But I tried today. I went to her. I respected her. Her eyes again filled with tears. She put her motherly hand over my head and came back. I was feeling as if I should be buried deep inside this earth. How come I did that? Please forgive me Lord! I know I am guilty.

Forgiving others is probably easy. But to forgive yourself is the most difficult task. The wound is now healed. But the experience would remain in my memories for forever. I confess my mistakes to the Supreme. I don't want to spoil lives. Let me the only one to understand. Some day probably I might be able to get my inner peace then.

Again as always:

It was a sad and quiet night,

with words as my shade,

I wrote this poem to you,

hoping that the pain would fade.

Hoping that the pain would fade,

the pain I feel in me,

as each day passes by,

the time might set me free.

It was a sad and quiet night,

when I faced the hardest part,

cause I was all by myself,

with a broken heart.

It was a sad and quiet night,

with my head in hand,

when I learned to accept,

and how to understand.

Now I do understand,

that reality is pain,

which brought me tears,

and left me in the rain.

It was a sad and quiet night,

as my dreams went through,

I realize my mistake,

it was wrong to have you.

Changed Inside

2035 hrs dated 17 Dec2010: I have become too pessimistic these days. But one would be after loosing his right hand. Isn't it? Can you feel that? No...Only I can! Why people put their life on risk just to save few seconds? Destiny... Is there any way to bring back history? I am crying hard to change the same. But is it the real me? Certainly not. I was never that. Spirit has put me behind. But I still believe in the Supreme. There must be some hidden good for me.

Enough now...No negative wave can stop my way. It's my life and I will decide how to get along. Whatever has gone was destined to go; the appealing thing is Whatever will come is destined to meet. Let me cherish the prospective beauty of the future. I wish somebody would have accompanied me; but the conditions have overruled my feelings now. I can't spoil lives. I can't betray any angel. I have to keep the poison inside, the inside which has changed overtly. The white, red and violet membranes are overwhelming. There would be a new dawn from tomorrow. I will forget everything. I have to for your sake, or for my self. As they say, Success carries much more. It dives in much deeper ocean. I will try to dive inside.

As always:

He has achieved sucess who has

Lived well, laughed often and loved much.

Who has enjoyed the trust of pure women,

The respect of intelligent men, and

The love of little children.

Who has filled his niche and

Accomplished his task;

Who has left the world better than he

Found it, whether by an improved poppy,

A perfect poem or a rescued soul.

Who has never lacked appreciation of

Earth's beauty or failed to express it.

Who has always looked for the best in

Others and given them the best he had.

Whose life was an inspiration;

Whose memory a benediction.

This would be me

This had to be me.

I was unaware in the beginning,

How to express my singing;

But now that it's Changed Inside,

Vipin would always be pride.

Disappointment

2017 hrs dated 16 Dec2010: The heights of grief I am feeling right now. This is the worst letdown of my life. I'm learning more and more that this earthly life is inevitably filled with disappointments. I am facing the biggest defeat right now. I lost many things today. I don't know how I survived though many things got crushed today. I lost one of my biggest belongings... I'm sure there are lessons to be learned but I'm certainly not enjoying the process to get to those lessons. It seems like everywhere I turn I'm faced with disappointment. I guess it's partially my fault for assuming that others will have as much consideration and respect as I do for people. I guess I can't expect folks to behave as I would....but it's so disappointing when they don't. I'm getting fed up and I'm beyond annoyed. Over the last several weeks it just seems like let down after let down. And what's really shocking is that people that I would never expect it from are the very ones causing me so much grief. Have you ever thought that someone was a great friend, a person you could count on.....only to find out that they in fact could careless about the feelings of those around them and they actually only have their own self serving agendas in mind?! It's an overwhelming let down....and how do you shake something like this off??? Call me crazy but I'm definitely struggling with this and also reevaluating many of the relationships in my life.

Is there any way to get out of all this? Is there anybody to hold my hand at this moment? I afraid but the answer is not affirmative. I afraid to call someone. I afraid to roam outside. I afraid to listen to a song. I afraid to live. I even afraid to die...

My feet are big and heavy

From walking all this time

I feel like there is just too much

That I have weighing on my mind.

I know that I should have thought

Of a better solution to this thing

But as life would have it

I am stuck here

And this is where my reality begins.

You see, I thought I had it all planned out

But my plans went another route

Following my dreams led me here

Then I slowly watched them disappear.

This is not the life that I used to live

Not the food, not the friends to spend time with.

Too many differences from my comfotable home

Too many disappointments to add to the toll.

But still yet I cry, deep down inside

And pray that the hope I have left

Will be just enough to help me get by...

And still yet, I cry...

The persona of Homeopathy

Why this out of the box article? Well...In my new bud of Content Management, I came across to write 24 articles with a theme of Alternative Medicines. So started the same with Homeopathy being my first topic. The very first obvious question arises in this field was Why to go for Homeopathy? They claim Homeopathy to be as old as 200 years. But is it enough to trust them? Why Samuel Hahnemann cared for a need to coin Allopathy then? Let me struggle to find the answer.

Do a self-diagnosis below. If you answer YES, homeopathic medicine may be right for you:

• My tests are normal but I still feel sick.

• I take my medicine, but I don’t feel better – in fact, I feel worse.

• I know there’s “natural” cures, but I don’t know where to find them.

• I wonder if the drugs I am taking are right for me.

• I have chronic pain and told to live with it or take pain killers.

Homeopathy is holistic, scientifically based, safe, effective and less expensive than allopathic medicine. These remedies are prepared by serial dilution with shaking by forceful striking, which homeopaths term succussion, after each dilution under the assumption that this increases the effect. After this potentization, homeopaths look for physical and psychological states of the patient. Repertories are then consulted and a remedy is suggested on the basis of totality of symptoms. These remedies are considered to be safe though homeopathy has been criticized for putting patients at risk due to advice against conventional medicine such as vaccinations,anti-malarial drugs,and antibiotics.

Seven important disciplines of Homeopathic medicine are:

1. Classical Homeopathy works through activating the body’s own powers of self regulation and self healing. One of the basic principles is the “law of similars” which states that substances which can cause certain symptoms in healthy people can cure those same symptoms when they occur in an ill person.
2. Chelation is an Oral or Intravenous medical treatment that is used to remove heavy metal poisoning from the body. Chelation “cleans up” the circulatory system and slows normal aging by removing metals. It is important to understand that Chelation does not remove Plaque from Blood Vessels but works by removing those toxic metals elements in the blood and blood vessels that contribute to blood clot formation. This has the effect of greatly improving circulation.
3. Orthomolecular Therapy provides the optimum concentration of substances normally present in the human body such as vitamins, minerals, amino acids and enzymes. Orthomolecular therapy includes the diagnosis of ailments or physiologic stresses that occur as a result of genetic or environmental influences as well as acquired or inherited allergy and hypersensitivity responses and enzymes.
4. Neuromuscular Integration is musculoskeletal therapy that uses any combination of manual methods, physical agents and physical medicine procedures and devices to improve physiological function by normalizing body structure.
5. Nutrition is the recommendation by a licensee of therapeutic or preventative dietary measures, food factor concentrates, fasting and cleansing regimens and the rebalancing by a licensee of digestive system function to correct diseases of malnutrition, to resolve conditions of metabolic imbalance and to support optimal vitality.
6. Pharmaceutical Medicine is drug therapy that uses prescription-only and nonprescription pharmaceutical agents as well as medicinal agents of botanical, biological or mineral origin and that is based on current scientific indications or traditional or historical usage indication.
7. Acupuncture is a medical therapy in which ailments are diagnosed and treated by the specific application of needles, heat or physical and electromagnetic impulses or currents to specific anatomic points on the body.

These above mentioned seven dimensions probably justify the variability of human acumen in consistent search for development. I never experienced any of the clauses in persona; but as they say homeopathy has survived the attempts of allopaths, at times.