The Reflection of My Heart

Love

Is like the wind

It passes by

And leaves nothing behind

Just passes through

My heart, My soul

And never let me

Enjoy the feeling,

The sensation,

Of being cared for by someone

Who really loves me.

Why is my life

So desperate always?

Why is love

Treating me so unkindly?

I look forever

I search forever

Look everywhere

Search everywhere

And all I end up with is

A love that

Never lasts long.

My heart is a

Heart of pain.

It has never

Been able to love someone longer

Than it wants to.

I always love

But does that person love me?

The answers

To my questions

Are always

Painful,

And different to

Take into term.

Am I suppose

To search the rest of

My lonely life?

Where will I go?

Where will I search?

I am tired

Of searching

And wondering

Day by day.

Why must my heart

Be all pain

And none of love?

"WE"- The Engineers

Traditionally engineers have been viewed as geeks or nerds who do nothing but study strange kinds of things and manufacture big machines and buildings. Even nowadays when some coaching institute puts up an ad showing engineering aspirants they would put up posters of people with formal boring shirts and a metallic cap which the mechanics wear in garages. Whereas the doctors they’ll show are all smart and dashing with matching colourful shirts inside their white aprons...

I mean why such discrimination against engineers. They would make serials like sanjeevani and dhadkan for doctors. Do only doctors have the charm to woo girls. And engineers are all boring people found glued to their computer screens or buried inside a pile of machines.

Come on, engineers are not like that. At least not what I’ve seen and known. Then who are engineers and what are engineers. Well understanding this species is extremely difficult. However the common characteristics are:

Extreme

Whatever they do has to be on an extreme. No study for the 4-5 months of the semester and no sleep for the 4-5 days before the exams. The same student who you’ll find with his torn jeans and the college t-shirt jumping out of the class(or rather bunking out of the class), impressing the panel of interviewers from the very best companies of the world.

The same stud whom you found half-conscious and fully drunk lying outside the hostel gate in the garden, can stun a gathering full of scholars while delivering a speech on consiousness.

Adaptive

Engineering students are supposed to be the most indisciplined and rude fellows on campus who are always clumsily dressed. But what happens to these guys/gals when they hit the corporate floor. They are the most smartly dressed people and present the face of India Inc.

They are as comfortable in the college-side khokha(dhaba) eating maggy sitting on the mat as they are while having lunch with their clients in a 5-star hotel.

Matter-of-factly

The 4 years of engineering teaches engineers how to learn. Learn different concepts, languages, techniques and anything else. Engineers are basically learners. Engineers doing well in CAT and other entrances are not because they are engineers but because they are good learners and can adapt to the changing situations.

And again towards the end:

"To the optimist, the glass is half full. To the pessimist, the glass is half empty. To the engineer, the glass is twice as big as it needs to be!"

Dedicated to:

CHOTANARAD

)o(...Bountiful Blessings...)o(

"When you're down to nothing, God is upto something. The faithful see the invisible, believe the incredible and then receive the impossible." Is this assertion true? Pardon me my Lord! I have become too pessimist for reckoning this wonderful statement with doubt...So Lonely, so Guilty, so Bad, so Uneasy...There comes times in lyfe when you start to spirit everything with a sense of doubt. Probably I am going through the very same clock.

Meditation has been described as the process in which I listen to God. In contrast to that, prayer is sometimes described as the process when I speak to God. To speak to God is very important, but it is also important to let the mind become quiet, stable and open to receive whatever God wishes to say to me. Sometimes we may feel that God is so far away, so far out of reach that it is impossible to have a living relationship with God. We may be contented to just perform rituals, devotion and prayers, or perhaps even lose interest in the subject of God. But it is only a question of time until we come to the point where we say, "Well may be God exists", or "Maybe He doesn't". Without focusing on the inner aspects of religion and spirituality, or on any way of reaching out to God, we have lost that inner experience and strength needed in our lives today.

When a pendulum reaches the end of its swing, it begins to swing back in the other direction. We have been experimenting externally with the things of materialism within a consumer society, and the pendulum of these actions has swung so far as to hit the wall. It is unable to go any further in that direction. The pendulum now has to swing in the other direction and so will do my destiny.

When I see you as a spiritual being, my attitude towards you change very quickly. I find that those physical divisions and blocks that divide or obstruct, no longer exist. But the vision of the soul, seeing others as souls and the interaction on the level of soul to soul creates a natural sweetness and respect within my behavior. This experience reaches to the state where every exchange between human beings gives happiness and joy and brings each other closer to God. As I practice this awareness, during the day, of being a soul and seeing the soul, then when I have a few minutes to sit quietly, within one moment, with just one thought I am able to experience a very natural and easy detachment from the consciousness of the body. I am still in this world of matter and in the bondage of matter and yet I am free from this bondage.

In this awareness of I the soul, I want to go further. I want to experience a connection, a relationship with God. Just as there is knowledge and awareness of the soul as a being of light, there is also very simple information about the concept of God, as a being of light. Not a physical image, just simply a being of light. One who is absolute, absolute in truth, absolute in beauty, purity, love, peace and bliss. This is why I want to be able to connect with the Supreme. I will, soon; a promise to myself...!

As the body is sitting quietly......the attention of my mind are turning within..... and in this awareness, of I...... the eternal soul..... I am focusing my thoughts on the Supreme.... the being of light. God's light.... reaching the soul.... and purifying the me... That light cleansing the soul... and making me coming back to that original state of purity and peace...

Amen!!!

"For each new morning with its light,
For rest and shelter of the night,
For health and food,
For love and friends,
For everything Thy goodness sends!"