Inner Peace

1817 hrs dated 23 Dec2010: I am silent today. There is no feeling left inside. The day started with an unexpected message from heaven. The brief chat made me feel as if I had got everything. But deep inside a voice kept on saying, 'dude its virtual; you will never get this angel; wake up, get real'. Destiny!

I rushed towards my car for a long drive was on the way. I was feeling her presence and to my surprise my speed limit confined to 60. But all the way was one more dominant factor which breached my vision. I was repenting on the harsh words I said to somebody the previous evening. That pure soul was crying in the morning and I was the bloody reason. Why I couldn't control myself? I made her cry in the divine time. Should Almighty forgive me for that? No...

The day is about to end and I have had nothing. But there is no feeling of even thirst. My inner peace is lost somewhere. And the irony is that I allowed the same. I am sorry. I could do nothing. But I tried today. I went to her. I respected her. Her eyes again filled with tears. She put her motherly hand over my head and came back. I was feeling as if I should be buried deep inside this earth. How come I did that? Please forgive me Lord! I know I am guilty.

Forgiving others is probably easy. But to forgive yourself is the most difficult task. The wound is now healed. But the experience would remain in my memories for forever. I confess my mistakes to the Supreme. I don't want to spoil lives. Let me the only one to understand. Some day probably I might be able to get my inner peace then.

Again as always:

It was a sad and quiet night,

with words as my shade,

I wrote this poem to you,

hoping that the pain would fade.

Hoping that the pain would fade,

the pain I feel in me,

as each day passes by,

the time might set me free.

It was a sad and quiet night,

when I faced the hardest part,

cause I was all by myself,

with a broken heart.

It was a sad and quiet night,

with my head in hand,

when I learned to accept,

and how to understand.

Now I do understand,

that reality is pain,

which brought me tears,

and left me in the rain.

It was a sad and quiet night,

as my dreams went through,

I realize my mistake,

it was wrong to have you.

Changed Inside

2035 hrs dated 17 Dec2010: I have become too pessimistic these days. But one would be after loosing his right hand. Isn't it? Can you feel that? No...Only I can! Why people put their life on risk just to save few seconds? Destiny... Is there any way to bring back history? I am crying hard to change the same. But is it the real me? Certainly not. I was never that. Spirit has put me behind. But I still believe in the Supreme. There must be some hidden good for me.

Enough now...No negative wave can stop my way. It's my life and I will decide how to get along. Whatever has gone was destined to go; the appealing thing is Whatever will come is destined to meet. Let me cherish the prospective beauty of the future. I wish somebody would have accompanied me; but the conditions have overruled my feelings now. I can't spoil lives. I can't betray any angel. I have to keep the poison inside, the inside which has changed overtly. The white, red and violet membranes are overwhelming. There would be a new dawn from tomorrow. I will forget everything. I have to for your sake, or for my self. As they say, Success carries much more. It dives in much deeper ocean. I will try to dive inside.

As always:

He has achieved sucess who has

Lived well, laughed often and loved much.

Who has enjoyed the trust of pure women,

The respect of intelligent men, and

The love of little children.

Who has filled his niche and

Accomplished his task;

Who has left the world better than he

Found it, whether by an improved poppy,

A perfect poem or a rescued soul.

Who has never lacked appreciation of

Earth's beauty or failed to express it.

Who has always looked for the best in

Others and given them the best he had.

Whose life was an inspiration;

Whose memory a benediction.

This would be me

This had to be me.

I was unaware in the beginning,

How to express my singing;

But now that it's Changed Inside,

Vipin would always be pride.

Disappointment

2017 hrs dated 16 Dec2010: The heights of grief I am feeling right now. This is the worst letdown of my life. I'm learning more and more that this earthly life is inevitably filled with disappointments. I am facing the biggest defeat right now. I lost many things today. I don't know how I survived though many things got crushed today. I lost one of my biggest belongings... I'm sure there are lessons to be learned but I'm certainly not enjoying the process to get to those lessons. It seems like everywhere I turn I'm faced with disappointment. I guess it's partially my fault for assuming that others will have as much consideration and respect as I do for people. I guess I can't expect folks to behave as I would....but it's so disappointing when they don't. I'm getting fed up and I'm beyond annoyed. Over the last several weeks it just seems like let down after let down. And what's really shocking is that people that I would never expect it from are the very ones causing me so much grief. Have you ever thought that someone was a great friend, a person you could count on.....only to find out that they in fact could careless about the feelings of those around them and they actually only have their own self serving agendas in mind?! It's an overwhelming let down....and how do you shake something like this off??? Call me crazy but I'm definitely struggling with this and also reevaluating many of the relationships in my life.

Is there any way to get out of all this? Is there anybody to hold my hand at this moment? I afraid but the answer is not affirmative. I afraid to call someone. I afraid to roam outside. I afraid to listen to a song. I afraid to live. I even afraid to die...

My feet are big and heavy

From walking all this time

I feel like there is just too much

That I have weighing on my mind.

I know that I should have thought

Of a better solution to this thing

But as life would have it

I am stuck here

And this is where my reality begins.

You see, I thought I had it all planned out

But my plans went another route

Following my dreams led me here

Then I slowly watched them disappear.

This is not the life that I used to live

Not the food, not the friends to spend time with.

Too many differences from my comfotable home

Too many disappointments to add to the toll.

But still yet I cry, deep down inside

And pray that the hope I have left

Will be just enough to help me get by...

And still yet, I cry...

The persona of Homeopathy

Why this out of the box article? Well...In my new bud of Content Management, I came across to write 24 articles with a theme of Alternative Medicines. So started the same with Homeopathy being my first topic. The very first obvious question arises in this field was Why to go for Homeopathy? They claim Homeopathy to be as old as 200 years. But is it enough to trust them? Why Samuel Hahnemann cared for a need to coin Allopathy then? Let me struggle to find the answer.

Do a self-diagnosis below. If you answer YES, homeopathic medicine may be right for you:

• My tests are normal but I still feel sick.

• I take my medicine, but I don’t feel better – in fact, I feel worse.

• I know there’s “natural” cures, but I don’t know where to find them.

• I wonder if the drugs I am taking are right for me.

• I have chronic pain and told to live with it or take pain killers.

Homeopathy is holistic, scientifically based, safe, effective and less expensive than allopathic medicine. These remedies are prepared by serial dilution with shaking by forceful striking, which homeopaths term succussion, after each dilution under the assumption that this increases the effect. After this potentization, homeopaths look for physical and psychological states of the patient. Repertories are then consulted and a remedy is suggested on the basis of totality of symptoms. These remedies are considered to be safe though homeopathy has been criticized for putting patients at risk due to advice against conventional medicine such as vaccinations,anti-malarial drugs,and antibiotics.

Seven important disciplines of Homeopathic medicine are:

1. Classical Homeopathy works through activating the body’s own powers of self regulation and self healing. One of the basic principles is the “law of similars” which states that substances which can cause certain symptoms in healthy people can cure those same symptoms when they occur in an ill person.
2. Chelation is an Oral or Intravenous medical treatment that is used to remove heavy metal poisoning from the body. Chelation “cleans up” the circulatory system and slows normal aging by removing metals. It is important to understand that Chelation does not remove Plaque from Blood Vessels but works by removing those toxic metals elements in the blood and blood vessels that contribute to blood clot formation. This has the effect of greatly improving circulation.
3. Orthomolecular Therapy provides the optimum concentration of substances normally present in the human body such as vitamins, minerals, amino acids and enzymes. Orthomolecular therapy includes the diagnosis of ailments or physiologic stresses that occur as a result of genetic or environmental influences as well as acquired or inherited allergy and hypersensitivity responses and enzymes.
4. Neuromuscular Integration is musculoskeletal therapy that uses any combination of manual methods, physical agents and physical medicine procedures and devices to improve physiological function by normalizing body structure.
5. Nutrition is the recommendation by a licensee of therapeutic or preventative dietary measures, food factor concentrates, fasting and cleansing regimens and the rebalancing by a licensee of digestive system function to correct diseases of malnutrition, to resolve conditions of metabolic imbalance and to support optimal vitality.
6. Pharmaceutical Medicine is drug therapy that uses prescription-only and nonprescription pharmaceutical agents as well as medicinal agents of botanical, biological or mineral origin and that is based on current scientific indications or traditional or historical usage indication.
7. Acupuncture is a medical therapy in which ailments are diagnosed and treated by the specific application of needles, heat or physical and electromagnetic impulses or currents to specific anatomic points on the body.

These above mentioned seven dimensions probably justify the variability of human acumen in consistent search for development. I never experienced any of the clauses in persona; but as they say homeopathy has survived the attempts of allopaths, at times.

The Real Virtue

One young academically excellent person went to apply for a managerial position in a big company.

He passed the first interview, the director did the last interview, made the last decision.

The director discovered from the CV that the youth's academic achievements were excellent all the way, from the secondary school until the postgraduate research, never had a year when he did not score.

The director asked, "Did you obtain any scholarships in school?" the youth answered "none".

The director asked, " Was it your father who paid for your school fees?" The youth answered, "My father passed away when I was one year old, it was my mother who paid for my school fees.

The director asked, " Where did your mother work?" The youth answered, "My mother worked as clothes cleaner. The director requested the youth to show his hands. The youth showed a pair of hands that were smooth and perfect.

The director asked, " Have you ever helped your mother wash the clothes before?" The youth answered, "Never, my mother always wanted me to study and read more books. Furthermore, my mother can wash clothes faster than me.

The director said, "I have a request. When you go back today, go and clean your mother's hands, and then see me tomorrow morning.*

The youth felt that his chance of landing the job was high. When he went back, he happily requested his mother to let him clean her hands. His

mother felt strange, happy but with mixed feelings, she showed her hands to the kid.

The youth cleaned his mother's hands slowly. His tear fell as he did that. It was the first time he noticed that his mother's hands were so wrinkled, and there were so many bruises in her hands. Some bruises were so painful that his mother shivered when they were cleaned with water.

This was the first time the youth realized that it was this pair of hands that washed the clothes everyday to enable him to pay the school fee. The bruises in the mother's hands were the price that the mother had to pay for his graduation, academic excellence and his future.

After finishing the cleaning of his mother hands, the youth quietly washed all the remaining clothes for his mother.

That night, mother and son talked for a very long time.

Next morning, the youth went to the director's office.

The Director noticed the tears in the youth's eyes, asked: " Can you tell me what have you done and learned yesterday in your house?"

The youth answered, " I cleaned my mother's hand, and also finished cleaning all the remaining clothes'

The Director asked, " please tell me your feelings."

The youth said, Number 1, I know now what is appreciation. Without my mother, there would not be a successful me today. Number 2, by working together and helping my mother, only I now realize how difficult and tough it is to get something done. Number 3, I have come to appreciate the importance and value of family relationship.

The director said, " This is what I am looking for to be my manager. I want to recruit a person who can appreciate the help of others, a person who knows the sufferings of others to get things done, and a person who would not put money as his only goal in life. You are hired.

Later on, this young person worked very hard, and received the respect of his subordinates. Every employee worked diligently and as a team. The company's performance improved tremendously.

A child, who has been protected and habitually given whatever he wanted, would develop "entitlement mentality" and would always put himself first. He would be ignorant of his parent's efforts. When he starts work, he assumes that every person must listen to him, and when he becomes a manager, he would never know the sufferings of his employees and would always blame others. For this kind of people, who may be good academically, may be successful for a while, but eventually would not feel sense of achievement. He will grumble and be full of hatred and fight for more. If we are this kind of protective parents, are we really showing love or are we destroying the kid instead?*

You can let your kid live in a big house, eat a good meal, learn piano, watch a big screen TV. But when you are cutting grass, please let them experience it. After a meal, let them wash their plates and bowls together with their brothers and sisters. It is not because you do not have money to hire a maid, but it is because you want to love them in a right way. You want them to understand, no matter how rich their parents are, one day their hair will grow gray, same as the mother of that young person. The most important thing is your kid learns how to appreciate the effort and experience the difficulty and learns the ability to work with others to get things done.

COURTESY: MR.HARSHA

Lead Out Loud

Each one on this earth has it...The ability to lead...and inspire...Sometimes our work feel small and insignificant...But remember, a small ripple can gain momentum...and build a current that is insurmountable...Begin with one small step...Don't let others stand in your way...Walk Your own path...Some may laugh...So what? Many will follow...Never give up...Success...seems to be largely a matter of HANGING ON after others have let go...Fear...keep people small...Run towards your fears...Embrace them...On the other side of your greatest fears lives your greatest life...Get out of the stands...Get on the court...Play the game of life...Take the risk...Leap...and the net will appear...Be positive...What you think, is who you become...Dream...Dream big...Feel it...Believe it...Achieve it...Whatever your dreams are...go for it...you will inspire others...Extend a hand...care...Be kind...When someone does something good, applaud...you will make two people happy...Be a positive role model...Be the Change you want to see in the world...Make a difference...NOW...

Courtesy: Sonia

Persopion

2015 hrs dated 07 Dec2010: Life is like an unsolved puzzle. It is something that makes you happy and proud at times. At times it makes you feel so low that you start asking to yourself, "Why I was born?" Whatever it is, at every moment something new happens. Something you never expected, something you were expecting from a long time to happen, or something you were least expecting. It is a combination of love, sorrow, joy, fear, excitement, loneliness, enjoyment & happiness; with or without tears. Emotions are omnipresent, irrespective of your mood.

The previous day eventually ended today at 1600 hrs with a good news of approval of my new bud, Persopion, as a sponsored company in Gurgaon. Persopion is a derived Italian word formulated by joining Persona with Opinion. Since We deal with opinions of different personalities, hence the name Persopion. A number of technical issues were raising their hood with the earlier name, EduSolutionsIndia. We had started feeling the strategic demand for repositioning. The annual Blitz of IBS unknowingly became the medium for the same resulted in Persopion. I learnt many new softwares and other negotiation skills during this phase. I had never expected to be an HR guy; but destiny transformed me into the same. Its a great feeling to work for ourselves. The accomplishments make us forget the sufferings of past. I pray Almighty to keep this flame glowing over time.

1900 hrs: I was enjoying some leisure moments with my flat-mates. We all were sharing our golden moments. We were happy like anything. Suddenly Spardha got a call from her Dad. She put the phone on loudspeaker. For the very first time I listened to her Dad's voice. It was an emotional moment. For the first time I could feel the hidden pain of a single parent upbringing child. She got emotional. I was struggling hard to understand the complexity of some relationships. All moods changed at once. In searching for somebody perfect, we tend to neglect someone who loves you even more than yourself. These feelings started rooting deeper and deeper. My mood turned over the leaf in the form of pearls flowing through my eyes. I wish She would live a happy life. My offerings have probably started showing their effects. I never misused you in any form dear. There exists a fountain of blessings for you. Only God knows this. I never wanted to loose you. But why you let me allowed? Why didn't you fight back? Is it so easy to forget me? I hope none of us would fill with pain in future.

I try to see

I try to feel

But All is still

Except sometimes I weep

But why are my emotions now asleep

Is this a feeling of peace

I don't know if it is

Probably its in deep freeze...

A Midas Emotion

1340 hrs dated 06Nov2010: I wish my eyes could speak what my heart feels for you coz my lips can lie on what is true! Truly said that Friends put laughter in our hearts after we have been overwhelmed by grief. They fill our steps with wonderful moments and bring spring in our deserts. I felt this again as the day advanced. A re-union of old mates was justified enough to lift some blinds outta my heart.

As decided earlier, we all gathered together in front of DAV school at our respective timings. After spending a few moments we decided to re-unite at Utsav Conference Hall. I handed over my car keys to Aman and as promised earlier Mani drove me to the finish riding her scooty. Passersby were staring at us in amusement. So I tried to hide my face behind her ponytail. The 'gurlie-gang' gave a loud cheer on our arrival. We assembled in the conference hall but moved later on to dining hall for snacks and starters. Everybody was delighted to meet the known unknowns after such a long dimension of tyme. My eternal love for Ram was a new surprise for the group followed by Vikas who showcased his true affection for Mohit. The chit chat continued for more than 4 hours. We shared many stupid things; missed others who couldn't make their presence and tried to cherish every moment collectively. After long I met humans who were there emotionally without bias.

Nobody was willing to depart. We kept on saying good-bye and doing gabfest again & again. Greetings finally with wordings like 'take care', 'line maarta rahio', 'kamine', 'faaltu organizer hai tu', 'next time bhabhi saath mei honi chahiye', 'new year pe milenge', 'kuch der aur nahi ruk sakte', 'ab mat bhoolio saale', 'good luck' and others said & unsaid made me emotional thereafter. Probably these are defined as feelings...

Life has transformed us into machines. These unexpected gatherings make us feel lively. Atleast I felt that way. Nobody knows what would be the end, but means should justify the same and moments like these are apt for nurturing the divine journey encompassing attires...

Dedicated to : Friends...

"Outlook"

Most of the relations and persons look great if experienced at some distance only. The more you come closer, more you get bitter...Don't know if I am wrong in my perception; I damn care for the people & the surroundings now. What's going on? Nothing!!I am just gaining my Ego back...No more expectations, no more hurt, no more falseness, no more promises, no more emotions, no more empathy...It's me, the Real me...simply 'vipin' who calls a spade a spade. No more drama, no more trauma. I am what I am and I am not at all ready to change my attitude simply to please others. Love me for what I am or get lost outta my life!!!

Whenever you are depressed, confused or hurt, don't worry...Go in front of the mirror and you will find the best person who will solve your problem...Trust Yourself and only Yourself!!!Surprisingly the bestest of the persons leave you when you need them the most. Without a sense of urgency, desire loses its value. It ends up leaving a painful sigh...All glory comes from daring to begin & I am doing the same...

I never saw an ugly thing in my life for let the form of the object be what it may, light or shade; the perception will always make it beautiful. But I did see the ugliness in people's percept polished in a silver lining. There is nothing you can do with others; you cant expect people to be nice just because you are nice. Now I am not nice and so do I expect from the person in front. I am not the one who should be blamed; you made me so dear...I trust only reflections. Though even they change with progress but atleast they are destined to live with you.

When we share laughter,

There's twice the fun;

When we share success,

We've surpassed what we've done.

When we share problems,

There's half the pain;

But when we share tears,

A rainbow follows rain.

This rainbow is not conventional. Its a mix of shades varying from extreme white to extreme black. Eventually if you mix the entire VIBGYOR, you will get a shade only, appealing white to many and dark to others. Try it yourself if you disagree...Colors are thus virtual, the false unjustified impressions. I don't want to be the NEO of MATRIX. But why I am forced to behave like that at times. And that too with friends, or my virtual imaginations probably...I really want to live, Almighty! Am I demanding too much?

Distortion of Theme

2300 hrs dated 10th October 2010: I could not slept the previous night so headed out for a stroll today early in the morning; took some pictures of the surroundings & returned back in an hour in order to prepare for my CFA exam. The colored night was full of sentiments. Its very difficult to persuade life. Believing everybody is dangerous, but believing nobody is more dangerous. However some newly developed attributes like self motivation and self concept really helps a lot in getting outta notorious feelings.

I got invigorated after the stroll & started again my studies. Also was feeling to do some merriment and thus made a 'good-morning' call to an angel. This innocent angel tries to hide her blues but fails as I can sense every beat of her heart. I feel nothing but to kiss her forehead and take her in my arms so that no shadow can touch her. But is she willing to come? I don't think so. Doesn't matter anyways. The appealing thing is otherwise. I really want her to laugh again with her original rabbit smile and am sure enough to experience that moment very soon. God bless you sweetheart!But I have become demanding too. I was always there unspoken, hidden deep inside the memories knowing about my presence from inside; but where you were in my infliction dear? I know I am bad but would I have been left you knowing otherwise! In lyfe you have-to take harsh decisions but intellect is required to be justified; not from your own point of view but considering all considering moments! May the laughter that you find in your tomorrow wipe away the pain you find in your yesterdays! I have prayed sincerely, be it Shirdi, or Aamer!

“Safar Per Saath Chala Tha Jo Rehbron Ki Tarah”

“Juda Huwa Woh Bhi Aakhir Musafiron Ki Tarah”

“Main Sochta Hoon Woh Kaise Bichad Gaya Mujhse”

“Jo Dhoop Me Milta Tha Mujhse Badalon Ki Tarah”

But honestly speaking my past experience has taught me a very beautiful thought; When you love someone, draw a circle around their name instead of a heart coz hearts can be broken but circles never end.

"Dil Ibadat...", the alarm tone of my cellphone, started ringing showing me 9:00 then. I cleansed my car after a long interval and drove to my examination center even though I was not supposed to drive. I gave a final reading of whatever I could read and appeared for the exam. I was feeling quite sleepy but managed somehow writing more than 2 hrs. A big achievement for me! After a month I was driving my car by myself & was really feeling like anything, so went alone for a long drive having no destination. The first song started playing at FM 104.8 was 'Hai Junoon'. What a coincidence! I can never forget this song and the surroundings! Many things change the perceptions and thinking. You may be first or last. But 'Change is inevitable'. It depends entirely on you how you enjoy the first position or exploit the last one. A short story is budding in my mind. Lemme share.

"A bus carrying only ugly people is involved in a crash, and everyone in the bus dies.

They go to Heaven. Because of the grief they have suffered, God decides to grant them one wish each, before they enter Paradise.

They're all lined up, and God asks the first one what their wish is. The person answers, "I want to be beautiful," and so God snaps His fingers, and it is done. The second one in line sees this and says "I want to be beautiful too." Another snap of His fingers and the wish is granted.

This goes on for a while, ! but when God is halfway down the line, the last person in line starts laughing. When there are only ten people left, this man is rolling on the floor, laughing ..

Finally, God gets to the end of the line and asks the laughing one what his wish will be. The man eventually catches his breath, and says: "Make them all ugly again".

Moral - Don't get disheartened for being last, as you can still change others lives being last."

I came back to my flat at around 1700 hrs. Then talked to Jyoti and Aman on conference. Jyoti reminded me that I was supposed to meet her today after my exam and I forgot. How can I and Why did I? Unfair...I know I am bad! Why I am feeling bad? Coz small things do make a difference. Forgetting my promise made a difference to her. Just remember, no matter how small the deed it really does makes a difference. Again a brief:

"A man was walking down the beach at sunset. As, he walked along, he saw another man in the distance. He noticed this man kept leaning down, picking up something and throwing it out into the water, again and again. As, he approached even closer, he noticed that the man was picking up starfish that had been washed up on the beach. He was throwing them back into the water, one by one.

Puzzled, he approached the man and said, "Good Evening. I was wondering what you are doing."

"I'm throwing these starfish back into the ocean. You see, it's low tide and all these starfish have been washed up onto the shore. If, I don't throw them back into the ocean, they'll die up here from lack of oxygen."

"But, there must be thousands of starfish on this beach. You can't possible get to all of them. And, don't you realize this is probably happening on hundreds of beaches all up and down this coast. Can't you see that you can't possibly make a difference?"

The man bent down and picked up yet another starfish, and threw it back into the ocean. With a smile he replied, "Made a difference to that one !!!" "

After doing some more activities like that of rearranging my room and likewise, I went to sleep and got up at 9:00. Then had some refreshments as was feeling hungry. I was also having a plan to call some old mates through voice chat. It was a long tyme since I had talked to. I started with Manu & Shruti & Anchal & Karan & Divya & Aditi & Pooja & Abhi & Mayank & finally Kashi.

And now sitting in front of my intelligent-box writing crap doing nothing. I love transition. I love facets. I love appearance. I love machete.

Know yourself!

Be yourself!

Trust yourself!

Love yourself!

Moment of Peace

Grief seems to span all of the emotions, more than I realized. I have laughed so hard. Found myself crying before my brain can even process the moment. When I talk about that moment she left, I can't describe the physiological emotion I feel inside me. It's like explaining the moment as if my psyche is leaving me. It's the most raw, vulnerable human experience I've ever been a part of having. I will never forget that sensation and feeling. I am changed forever.

I feared it would feel like an ugliness, a sadness that rotted who I was and how I saw the world. And perhaps there might be moments like that popping up along the way. But what I felt most strongly, most irrevocably, is that I need to send myself out into the world to pass on the goodness. That who the girl was, and how much she gave to other people, somehow absorbed into me. That I've seen where we're heading. That finality of the last breath, I felt. I will never be the same.

We were at the store after a few days and I saw two pictures that came in a pair. One said, "Live Every Moment." The other said, "Love Without Words." They were the thesis statements for what I felt, so I bought them even though I don't know where I'll put them. The only words I could say were... Just crying and crying. How intensely I needed to cry, not from fear or sadness, even...but this incredible sense of the power of the moment.

I walked out of the store, with this bewilderment that there were people just standing around talking. Like it was any old moment! Like it was any old day. Couldn't they know about somebody's feelings? That this was perhaps the most significant moment ever? I came home and curled up in the shower, Sanjeet sitting next to me as I talked and cried. I told him I wanted to walk up to people in the supermarket, the playground and say: I wanna shout loudly? When you've seen the most pure side of humanity, death or birth, it simplifies things. All that matters is those persons you love. The persons you'd want in your first or last moments of life. What happens in between is just about making sure that moment is a positive one. That it can be a moment of peace.

Best day of Lyfe

Today, when I awoke, I suddenly realized that this is the best day of my life, ever! There were times when I wondered if I would make it to today; but I did! And because I did I'm going to celebrate!

Today, I'm going to celebrate what an unbelievable life I have had so far: the accomplishments, the many blessings, and, yes, even the hardships because they have served to make me stronger. I will go through this day with my head held high, and a happy heart.

I will marvel at God's seemingly simple gifts: the morning dew, the sun, the clouds, the trees, the flowers, the birds. Today, none of these miraculous creations will escape my notice.

Today, I will share my excitement for life with other people. I'll make someone smile. I'll go out of my way to perform an unexpected act of kindness for someone I don't even know.

Today, I'll give a sincere compliment to someone who seems down. I'll tell a child how special he is, and I'll tell someone I love just how deeply I care for her and how much she means to me.

Today is the day I quit worrying about what I don't have and start being grateful for all the wonderful things God has already given me. I'll remember that to worry is just a waste of time because my faith in God and his Divine Plan ensures everything will be just fine.

And tonight, before I go to bed, I'll go outside and raise my eyes to the heavens. I will stand in awe at the beauty of the stars and the moon, and I will praise God for these magnificent treasures.

As the day ends and I lay my head down on my pillow, I will thank the Almighty for the best day of my life. And I will sleep the sleep of a contented child, excited with expectation because I know tomorrow is going to be the best day of my life, ever!

Amen!

"Sorry"

'em sorry of being so emotional

'em sorry of being so possessive

'em sorry that I cry for you

'em sorry because I cant live without you

'em sorry for the tears you shed

'em sorry for the damage I made

'em sorry I've made you sick

Sorry I hurt you so deep

'em sorry for giving you sleepless nights

'em sorry for each and every fight

'em sorry for your pain & agony

'em sorry for the missing harmony

'em sorry for my selfish love

'em sorry for not caring enough

'em sorry for my restlessness

'em sorry for the losing grace

'em sorry my friend I made you mad

'em sorry darling you are so sad

Sorry for not giving you any happiness

Sorry because its my disgrace

'em sorry for thinking of you so very much

'em sorry I always miss your touch

'em sorry of being so mad about you

'em sorry for my every blue

'em sorry of being so immature

'em sorry now that cant be cured

'em sorry of being myself

'em sorry that I've failed

'em sorry and sorry again

'em sorry of being insane

But believe me that I love you

Should I say sorry for that too ???

dedicated to: a cute sukomal rabbit

Felicity

Happiness is like butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you turn attention to other things, it comes and sits softly on your shoulder. At times, you come to realize that Wanting what you got is the real happiness...the real beauty...

2247 hours dated 9th September: Another busy doing nothing day...or busy enjoying happiness day probably!!!

After a long period of time I could laugh really by heart. This all started some days before when I came into contact with an old schoolmate. Her innocent beauty with a divine voice distracted my mind. I was still buried in the deep thoughts of an old angel; without which I had almost lost my own laughter. But some of the existing budding emotions were able to again vary my mood from extreme black to grey. An innocent incident recounted by this sweet orchid was able to overwhelm my dimensions. Let me brief about the incident...

"A girl aged 24 used to walk in a garden every evening. One day she saw a 8 year exceedingly fat boy who was being forced by her mother to jog in an endeavor to reduce his body weight. Getting attracted to his sweetness, the girl called him and asked his name. He told the same and run away. The next evening he again arrived with his mother. The girl again called him and offered him a chocolate. The boy refused the offering saying "mai junk food nahi khata". He then again run away keeping the girl unanswered in her mind, "mote junk nahi khata to phir mota kaisa hua?jhootha":) Some evenings passed this way. On the next Sunday was the Friendship Day. The girl thought of spending some time with the little boy on Sunday. She called him the previous evening in the same garden and asked if he would accompany her on the day at 1600 hrs. The boy agreed and stated that he would join her and would wait for her the entire evening. On Sunday the girl purchased some gifts and chocolates and arrived the meeting spot sharp at 4 p.m. She waited there for around two hours but the boy didn't come. In other words, an 8 year boy shattered the heart of a beautiful 24 years girl into pieces. :) Now the girl is searching him to beat him up.:)"

This small incident was being narrated to me by the girl in around 30 minutes. I was able to feel the contentment diving in the ocean of her words. After a long time felt the same spirit!!! Her depth of innocence was enlightening my cheers to seventh sky. An unanswered prayed started flowing outta inner core unhidden. True that priorities in lyfe do change with the influence of unknown. I have no idea as to what extent & to what moment this tempt will continue but the very reason to define my active felicity will by all odds experience an unending lyfe...

Friends make lyfe more beautiful

in many different ways...

With smiles of warm affection,

with words of loving praise...

With looks of trust and tenderness,

moments of deep sharing...

And countless little gestures

that remind you someone's caring...

With honesty and tactfulnes

in the things they say n do...

Yes, friends make lyfe more beautiful,

if they're special friends like you...

"Abhijeet" The Real Shefali

2348 hours dated 01September2010: I am feeling a deep sense of being Abhijeet. Abhijeet is a sanskrit word for Vega, the brightest star in Lyra constellation which beautifies its reflection in the night sky. Being Abhijeet is being victorious, being conqueror. A conqueror? Right! I am feeling like the same. The level of egotism is on the higher side today. Many factors are contributing for this emotion. The divine "Kriti" of the Almighty is nurturing an aroma in d surroundings. Presence of a beautiful "Shefali" in the orchids is letting my thoughts flow in the imageries. The dilemma of felicity is swinging my moods from contentment to ecstasy. Thanks to the emerging waves from various phantoms of nature!!! This pervasive presence is not confined to shadows only. Both "Abhijeet" and "Shefali" are existent and have their clear set of boundaries. "Shefali"-the pink flower, looks even more beautiful and delicate signifying the style and elegance of deity's "Kriti" filling the psyche with delight in presence of the beautiful "Abhijeet". Regards again to holy cosmos!!!

Ting-Ting...2400 hours, a new emerging morning outta this beautiful midnight!!!

I am feeling joyous like anything. Today my first product developed entirely by me spending 15+ sleepless nights got approved by the authorities. Koojba, a 200 crore company, invited EduSolutions to give a business proposal for exercising profiling part of their clientele. Sanjeet, my biggest critique and my alter ego, seemed to be highly satisfied with the progress. We decided to give ourselves a 2-month time for content development. The bud has now started blossoming. Regarding MBA, loads of assignments and presentations are scheduled ahead for the examinations are approaching. At tymes it becomes quite difficult to cope up with multiple projects and MBA and I feel like running away. But then comes a distant voice said once by somebody, "Vipin I want to see yourself on the top of everything!!!" I might not achieve that so-called "top", but can definitely try to come near that. I wish the speaker could have been with me!!!

Aahhh...another gorgeous creation of Almighty!! A butterfly is roaming around. Trying to get hold on its movements. This reminds me my childhood. Time is the biggest destroyer. It provides opportunity, but in the end, it destructs. Present becomes the history and history starts to appear more lively. They say that an individual runs after a future; but what I feel, he eventually dies to live in historical moments again...Life!!!

"Only what we give away,

Enriches us from day-to-day;

for not in getting but in giving,

Is found the lasting joy of giving.

For no one ever had a part,

In sharing treasures of heart;

Who did not feel the impact of,

The magic mystery av God's love of.

For love alone can make us kind,

And give us joy & peace of mind;

So live with joy unselfishly,

And you'll be blessed abundantly."

~ Er. Vipin Mittal

A New Beginning...

Motivation is what gets you started; and habit is what keeps you going. All our knowledge has its origins in our perceptions. Any new journey begins with a first step. And the beginning what I feel is the most important step for any process. So many failed not because they were lack of knowledge, but because they didn't begin; they didn't go; they didn't overcome inertia.

19JUNE2010: Morning 0600 hrs; Trin-trin,Trin-trin...Sanjeet called me up and asked me to confirm the expected meeting with M and other people. I put down some messages and asked for the updates. After getting through routine activities, I went to Shani-Mandir in order to offer my prayers to the Almighty. Meanwhile I also got a call from Sanjeet regarding my first scheduled meeting. On the way, I also got an unexpected call from somebody which though I wanted to attend, couldn't attend. However, I reached the desired place and went through the fruitful meeting. The next important meeting was with M in Janakpuri. It was again related to my dream project. Though we got late for the same but the meeting went on in the desired manner and again by God's grace the outcomes were bacciferous. We discussed the proceedings critically and I came back to my room at 2100 hours. Then came the series of phone calls with a final call from Dreamz which listened to my company's strategies patiently and to my surprise the same offered me a partnership. They appreciated my concept and did a lot of admiration about my ideas. I also came to know about many other collaborations with companies like Totalsolutions and Vzoomin. I got to bed at 0300 hours in the subsequent morning; but my energy level was on 9th cloud. Felt as if I am really on the right path in achieving my ray of light. By all odds this is a new beginning. A new bud appears to blossom in its own unique way. I hope to maintain the consistency in a growing manner. From small beginnings come the great things. Time will tell whether I am capable enough to make the difference; But as I always say,"I am trying hard and even if I fail, I won't be having regrets in my future ki maine try nahi kiya"...

It has stopped to rain,

Leaving me dripping in pain.

Life takes a new turn,

It’s a corner where ill learn.

Silver drops of rain engulf me,

Someone asks "Can he see??".

Then I wonder, can I see,

See all that I can be??

Life becomes a new journey,

The turns I take don't burn me.

I see flowers, birds and sunshine,

And I also learn to rhyme!!

Now the rain is my skin,

My only kith and kin.

The rain has taught me,

Now I see, all that I can be...

!!!SHILPI-"The Real Treasure"!!!

11JUNE2010: Yesterday in the morning I went to Pitampura in order to appear for my another certification. When I reached the destination I found a notice that the examinations have been postponed for an indefinite period of time. Having a bit sad expression(yeah its true!!its SAD coz I was fully prepared:P) I went back to my friend's place in Rohini & decided to stay there for the night. I was feeling lonely & missing some old friends and yesteryear's moments. I was not feeling like talking to anybody. So decided finally to peach one of my alter egos and I made a call to Shilpi.

As expected, her divine voice greeting 'vipin' detracted at once my half stress. Thereafter I babbled out my entire thoughts and she listened to me patiently. She is the one who truly justifies her name; she is the creator of happiness inside me. Directly or indirectly many of my thoughts are guided by her blessings. I love being scolded by her for I get a loving maternal hug after that. How come an unknown becomes your heartbeat which starts to seem the most beautiful music of your life...Happiness is the most cherishing gift of Almighty and so is the creator of that felicity. This creator thus is the real treasure of anybody's life.

To me you are an angel in disguise.

Full of intuition, intelligent, and wise.

Always giving and helping through

Good times and bad.

You are the best friend I've ever had.

If I had one wish it would surely be

To give you as much as you've given to me.

Though I've put our relationship through some cloudy days,

You've been my sunshine in so many ways.

Through trials and tests, right by me

You stood,

And gave me your hand whenever you could.

Thank you so much my sister, my friend

My gratitude for you has no end.

Love you soooooooooo much.....God bless!!!