"Sorry"

'em sorry of being so emotional

'em sorry of being so possessive

'em sorry that I cry for you

'em sorry because I cant live without you

'em sorry for the tears you shed

'em sorry for the damage I made

'em sorry I've made you sick

Sorry I hurt you so deep

'em sorry for giving you sleepless nights

'em sorry for each and every fight

'em sorry for your pain & agony

'em sorry for the missing harmony

'em sorry for my selfish love

'em sorry for not caring enough

'em sorry for my restlessness

'em sorry for the losing grace

'em sorry my friend I made you mad

'em sorry darling you are so sad

Sorry for not giving you any happiness

Sorry because its my disgrace

'em sorry for thinking of you so very much

'em sorry I always miss your touch

'em sorry of being so mad about you

'em sorry for my every blue

'em sorry of being so immature

'em sorry now that cant be cured

'em sorry of being myself

'em sorry that I've failed

'em sorry and sorry again

'em sorry of being insane

But believe me that I love you

Should I say sorry for that too ???

dedicated to: a cute sukomal rabbit

Felicity

Happiness is like butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you turn attention to other things, it comes and sits softly on your shoulder. At times, you come to realize that Wanting what you got is the real happiness...the real beauty...

2247 hours dated 9th September: Another busy doing nothing day...or busy enjoying happiness day probably!!!

After a long period of time I could laugh really by heart. This all started some days before when I came into contact with an old schoolmate. Her innocent beauty with a divine voice distracted my mind. I was still buried in the deep thoughts of an old angel; without which I had almost lost my own laughter. But some of the existing budding emotions were able to again vary my mood from extreme black to grey. An innocent incident recounted by this sweet orchid was able to overwhelm my dimensions. Let me brief about the incident...

"A girl aged 24 used to walk in a garden every evening. One day she saw a 8 year exceedingly fat boy who was being forced by her mother to jog in an endeavor to reduce his body weight. Getting attracted to his sweetness, the girl called him and asked his name. He told the same and run away. The next evening he again arrived with his mother. The girl again called him and offered him a chocolate. The boy refused the offering saying "mai junk food nahi khata". He then again run away keeping the girl unanswered in her mind, "mote junk nahi khata to phir mota kaisa hua?jhootha":) Some evenings passed this way. On the next Sunday was the Friendship Day. The girl thought of spending some time with the little boy on Sunday. She called him the previous evening in the same garden and asked if he would accompany her on the day at 1600 hrs. The boy agreed and stated that he would join her and would wait for her the entire evening. On Sunday the girl purchased some gifts and chocolates and arrived the meeting spot sharp at 4 p.m. She waited there for around two hours but the boy didn't come. In other words, an 8 year boy shattered the heart of a beautiful 24 years girl into pieces. :) Now the girl is searching him to beat him up.:)"

This small incident was being narrated to me by the girl in around 30 minutes. I was able to feel the contentment diving in the ocean of her words. After a long time felt the same spirit!!! Her depth of innocence was enlightening my cheers to seventh sky. An unanswered prayed started flowing outta inner core unhidden. True that priorities in lyfe do change with the influence of unknown. I have no idea as to what extent & to what moment this tempt will continue but the very reason to define my active felicity will by all odds experience an unending lyfe...

Friends make lyfe more beautiful

in many different ways...

With smiles of warm affection,

with words of loving praise...

With looks of trust and tenderness,

moments of deep sharing...

And countless little gestures

that remind you someone's caring...

With honesty and tactfulnes

in the things they say n do...

Yes, friends make lyfe more beautiful,

if they're special friends like you...

"Abhijeet" The Real Shefali

2348 hours dated 01September2010: I am feeling a deep sense of being Abhijeet. Abhijeet is a sanskrit word for Vega, the brightest star in Lyra constellation which beautifies its reflection in the night sky. Being Abhijeet is being victorious, being conqueror. A conqueror? Right! I am feeling like the same. The level of egotism is on the higher side today. Many factors are contributing for this emotion. The divine "Kriti" of the Almighty is nurturing an aroma in d surroundings. Presence of a beautiful "Shefali" in the orchids is letting my thoughts flow in the imageries. The dilemma of felicity is swinging my moods from contentment to ecstasy. Thanks to the emerging waves from various phantoms of nature!!! This pervasive presence is not confined to shadows only. Both "Abhijeet" and "Shefali" are existent and have their clear set of boundaries. "Shefali"-the pink flower, looks even more beautiful and delicate signifying the style and elegance of deity's "Kriti" filling the psyche with delight in presence of the beautiful "Abhijeet". Regards again to holy cosmos!!!

Ting-Ting...2400 hours, a new emerging morning outta this beautiful midnight!!!

I am feeling joyous like anything. Today my first product developed entirely by me spending 15+ sleepless nights got approved by the authorities. Koojba, a 200 crore company, invited EduSolutions to give a business proposal for exercising profiling part of their clientele. Sanjeet, my biggest critique and my alter ego, seemed to be highly satisfied with the progress. We decided to give ourselves a 2-month time for content development. The bud has now started blossoming. Regarding MBA, loads of assignments and presentations are scheduled ahead for the examinations are approaching. At tymes it becomes quite difficult to cope up with multiple projects and MBA and I feel like running away. But then comes a distant voice said once by somebody, "Vipin I want to see yourself on the top of everything!!!" I might not achieve that so-called "top", but can definitely try to come near that. I wish the speaker could have been with me!!!

Aahhh...another gorgeous creation of Almighty!! A butterfly is roaming around. Trying to get hold on its movements. This reminds me my childhood. Time is the biggest destroyer. It provides opportunity, but in the end, it destructs. Present becomes the history and history starts to appear more lively. They say that an individual runs after a future; but what I feel, he eventually dies to live in historical moments again...Life!!!

"Only what we give away,

Enriches us from day-to-day;

for not in getting but in giving,

Is found the lasting joy of giving.

For no one ever had a part,

In sharing treasures of heart;

Who did not feel the impact of,

The magic mystery av God's love of.

For love alone can make us kind,

And give us joy & peace of mind;

So live with joy unselfishly,

And you'll be blessed abundantly."

~ Er. Vipin Mittal

A New Beginning...

Motivation is what gets you started; and habit is what keeps you going. All our knowledge has its origins in our perceptions. Any new journey begins with a first step. And the beginning what I feel is the most important step for any process. So many failed not because they were lack of knowledge, but because they didn't begin; they didn't go; they didn't overcome inertia.

19JUNE2010: Morning 0600 hrs; Trin-trin,Trin-trin...Sanjeet called me up and asked me to confirm the expected meeting with M and other people. I put down some messages and asked for the updates. After getting through routine activities, I went to Shani-Mandir in order to offer my prayers to the Almighty. Meanwhile I also got a call from Sanjeet regarding my first scheduled meeting. On the way, I also got an unexpected call from somebody which though I wanted to attend, couldn't attend. However, I reached the desired place and went through the fruitful meeting. The next important meeting was with M in Janakpuri. It was again related to my dream project. Though we got late for the same but the meeting went on in the desired manner and again by God's grace the outcomes were bacciferous. We discussed the proceedings critically and I came back to my room at 2100 hours. Then came the series of phone calls with a final call from Dreamz which listened to my company's strategies patiently and to my surprise the same offered me a partnership. They appreciated my concept and did a lot of admiration about my ideas. I also came to know about many other collaborations with companies like Totalsolutions and Vzoomin. I got to bed at 0300 hours in the subsequent morning; but my energy level was on 9th cloud. Felt as if I am really on the right path in achieving my ray of light. By all odds this is a new beginning. A new bud appears to blossom in its own unique way. I hope to maintain the consistency in a growing manner. From small beginnings come the great things. Time will tell whether I am capable enough to make the difference; But as I always say,"I am trying hard and even if I fail, I won't be having regrets in my future ki maine try nahi kiya"...

It has stopped to rain,

Leaving me dripping in pain.

Life takes a new turn,

It’s a corner where ill learn.

Silver drops of rain engulf me,

Someone asks "Can he see??".

Then I wonder, can I see,

See all that I can be??

Life becomes a new journey,

The turns I take don't burn me.

I see flowers, birds and sunshine,

And I also learn to rhyme!!

Now the rain is my skin,

My only kith and kin.

The rain has taught me,

Now I see, all that I can be...

!!!SHILPI-"The Real Treasure"!!!

11JUNE2010: Yesterday in the morning I went to Pitampura in order to appear for my another certification. When I reached the destination I found a notice that the examinations have been postponed for an indefinite period of time. Having a bit sad expression(yeah its true!!its SAD coz I was fully prepared:P) I went back to my friend's place in Rohini & decided to stay there for the night. I was feeling lonely & missing some old friends and yesteryear's moments. I was not feeling like talking to anybody. So decided finally to peach one of my alter egos and I made a call to Shilpi.

As expected, her divine voice greeting 'vipin' detracted at once my half stress. Thereafter I babbled out my entire thoughts and she listened to me patiently. She is the one who truly justifies her name; she is the creator of happiness inside me. Directly or indirectly many of my thoughts are guided by her blessings. I love being scolded by her for I get a loving maternal hug after that. How come an unknown becomes your heartbeat which starts to seem the most beautiful music of your life...Happiness is the most cherishing gift of Almighty and so is the creator of that felicity. This creator thus is the real treasure of anybody's life.

To me you are an angel in disguise.

Full of intuition, intelligent, and wise.

Always giving and helping through

Good times and bad.

You are the best friend I've ever had.

If I had one wish it would surely be

To give you as much as you've given to me.

Though I've put our relationship through some cloudy days,

You've been my sunshine in so many ways.

Through trials and tests, right by me

You stood,

And gave me your hand whenever you could.

Thank you so much my sister, my friend

My gratitude for you has no end.

Love you soooooooooo much.....God bless!!!

The Rejoice???

For everything you have missed, you have gained something else; And for everything you gain, you lose something else. It is about your outlook towards lyfe. You can either regret or rejoice. Are we able to differentiate the two? Let me try to gather some historical moments.

16 November 2009: I got recruited by Reliance Ltd. for doing my internship training. I was happy like anything and willing to do everything to get a PPO. I started performing & very soon I became the egocentre of my company. 30 January 2010: I got my first appraisal & recognition in the form of a grand party thrown at me by the company's authorities. But with the passage of tyme, a bitter but hard lyfe truth started nourishing in my mind. "In any company irrespective of your salary, irrespective of your position; you generate a revenue of atleast three tymes for the company and you get a salary of one third. If I am worth 2-tetra zero, then why the hell I should get 19000 and 999 bucks? Its my hard earned money! I wont let you allow to take even single bloody rupee of mine!" This deep feeling inside me started penetrating its roots even more with every passing second. All this resulted in the development of a new dimension of wave in my spirit. "I wont be working for any of the company as after sometime I in itself would be a company." This generated a new ambition in my lyfe. Now my goal is to become capable enough so that Vipin may be held responsible for generating bread & butter of atleast 10 families. What should I say to this transition? Is it good or bad? Certainly tyme will tell! I don't know if I will succeed; But one thing is for sure; I will never say in future ki maine try nahi kiya!

And towards the end:

I may never see tomorrow, there is no written guarantee;

And things that happened yesterday, belong to History.

I cannot predict the future, I cannot change the past;

I have just the present moment, I must treat it as my last.

I must use the moment wisely, For it soon will pass away;

And be lost to me forever, As part of yesterday.

I must exercise compassion, help the fallen to their feet;

Be a friend to the friendless, Make an empty lyfe complete.

The unkind things I do today, May never be undone;

Any friendships that I fail to win, May never more be won.

I may not have another chance, On bended knee to pray;

And I thank God with humble heart, For giving me the day...

Amen!!!

""The Feared Attitude""

Your attitude is extremely contagious. With each casual contact,with each phone conversation, each e-mail message, it spreads.The people infected by your attitude then pass it along to others,who pass it on to others still.
And as your attitude quickly spreads each day throughout your world, it makes a difference everywhere it goes.One smile given in the morning can multiply by afternoon into enough encouragement for thousands of lives.There is really no telling how far it can go.
When you consistently act with sincere kindness, consideration,respect and positive enthusiasm, the benefits go far beyond just you alone.Your attitude in fact helps determine what kind of world you live in each day.It happens not through some hidden or mysterious force.
It is something you can see, understand and influence each time you come into contact with others.What kind of world would you most like to live in today?Live with the attitude that will indeed make it so.I feared being alone, until I learned to like myself,
I feared failure, until I realized that,
I only fail when I don't try.
I feared success, until I realized that,
I had to try, in order to be happy with myself.
I feared people's opinions until,
I learned that, people would have opinions about me anyway.

I feared rejection, until I learned to have faith in myself.
I feared pain, until I learned that it's necessary for growth.
I feared the truth, until I saw the ugliness in lies.
I feared life, until I experienced its beauty. I feared death, until I realized that it's not an end, but a beginning.
I feared my destiny, until I realized that
I had the power to change, my life.
I feared hate, until I saw that it
was nothing more than ignorance.
I feared love, until it touched my heart,
making the darkness fade
into endless sunny days.
I feared ridicule, until I learned how
to laugh at myself.
I feared growing old, until I realized that
I gained wisdom every day.
I feared the future, until I realized that
life just kept getting better.
I feared the past, until I realized that
it could no longer hurt me.
I feared the dark, until I saw the beauty
of the starlight.
I feared the light, until I learned that the
truth would give me strength.
I feared change, until I saw that
even the most beautiful butterfly had to undergo a metamorphosis before it could fly.